Clarifying

I thought I should clarify a few details.

Troy told me February 13th, 2012, and I quote, "I'll always have feelings for you."
(I wrote it in my iPhone)
                                                 Ouch
Once he finished that sentence, I knew it was over. (I didn't want to believe myself at the time)

On Wednesday, February 15th, we went to counseling together, he told me later that evening that we were done. I moved out, and into my parents house that weekend.
We went to counseling a couple times, but he had already tapped out. I told him that I would wait for him to work on whatever he needed to work on.
I stopped waiting in May 2012. I lied. I'm not waiting anymore.
I've gone back to using my maiden name.

Turns out, in our society, women only 'borrow' their husband's surname.
Legally, my surname was always Millham. It was just a matter of updating with the various entities to get new ID.
                                <exasperated sigh>

I made a list of what I need to change:      **everything in green I've updated**
>Facebook
>Twitter
>My Blog
>Driver's ID/license
>Banking Account
>Visa
>Provincial Health Card
>Veterinary Clinic
>Dental Office
>Visioncare Office
>Doctor's Office
>passport>Amazon.ca
>Skype account
>iTunes
>Paypal
>Sasktel(cell phone)
>Lunapads
>Library card

Working on it.
I'm NEVER changing my surname again. 
I usually say "Never say never", but if I'm with anyone that insists that I change my last name again...that's a deal breaker. It's entirely too much of a pain-in-the-ass.
*Next time* If it's that important to them, they're also changing their surname. We'll either hyphenate, or combine, or make up an entirely new name, but I refuse to be the only one to change.

Too Pooped To Blog...

As mentioned in a previous blog post, I began my graduated return to work at Great-West Life. It's been going well. I'm able to remember some things, so that's amazing.

The problem I keep running into is my fatigue level.
I started working for 2 hours on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, but had to stay at that level longer than was anticipated. I would work (or rather: have training) for the two hours, get home on the bus, and sleep for 3 or 4 hours.

It was tough to fit in my other responsibilities. Namely housework, and other errands such as counselling and lawyer meetings (separating from Troy).
For housework, I try to help my parents since I am living with them again till I can find a new home. My Mom is also rather allergic to dogs and quite allergic to cats, so I'm always vacuuming or dusting.
My parents are not vegan, and I do much of my own cooking, meal planning and grocery shopping. Although, they are eating more whole foods, so that makes me happy.

Back to work!
I'm now working three hours. I think I'll try to keep it at that level for a couple more weeks before increasing it again.
I need to take four hours of driving lessons before I can take the road test. I'd like to get that taken care of, before I'm working more.

My intention was to blog more regularly again, but it does get tricky with my return to work (we're always pushing my fatigue-level), lawyer and mediation visits, counselling, driving lessons, and regular life stuff.
Life does get overwhelming.

Some Humans Are Awesome

This is just to follow up on the Mannie situation.

I received a call on Thursday from Metro Pet Market, where I purchase my dog and cat food, I was told that a couple unanimously and very generously donated a pile of gift certificates for Mannie's food!
I was completely blown away. I cried.
What a beautiful gesture!
They did say that there are so many cats that are looking for good homes, and Mannie has one, I've just run into a stumbling block, so to speak.

I'm so happy and relieved to keep her.
You have no idea.
Or maybe you do, I just hope that you don't.

I am living at my parents house till I'm able to buy my own place (separation agreement is complete, and my name is off the mortgage). Thankfully, my parents are not charging me rent. Phew!
Lawyers are p.r.i.c.e.y.!
I am doing a lot of housework, including my laundry. ;) Vacuuming, dusting, garbage, dishes, poop scooping, various tasks of caring for my nonhuman friends.
My Mom is pretty allergic to cats. Thus my anxiousness to get my own place.

All that being said, I won't need to use the gift certificates right away, but it's so nice to know that they're there once I'm paying my own mortgage(and extremely broke).
#grateful       Oh, Twitter!

Mannie the cat needs a new home :(

I can't afford to care for Mannie. I've gone over my budget a number of times, and I'm very sad to say I can't afford a number of things.

• Cable-which is totally fine, I'd actually prefer to not have it.

• Security System-for when I'm able to buy a new home.

• Land Line-I'll just use my cell phone. I have reduced my bill & plan, as well.

• Car Payment-I don't plan on having one when I buy a car.
  
  Other than that stuff, I'm doing cheap vegan meals.
  
  I never thought I would be in this position. Of giving up my cat. It was the furthest thing from my mind when I first fostered her, then adopted her. But here I am.
  
  <sigh> I can't give her the life she deserves. She is seriously the sweetest cat on the face of the planet.
  When I'm hanging out with her, she reaches her paw out to touch my face. It's so freakin' sweet!!
  She hasn't been declawed(ahem=mutilated), but she always very careful to not have them out. She's never scratched me.
  She'll come with all of her gear. Her two litter boxes, four food bowls, pine litter, wet food, scratching posts, all of her numerous toys.
  
  Mannie Facts:
  short-haired blue merle
  not declawed
  about 5 years old
  spayed
  litter trained
  eats high quality wet food twice a day
  
  If you are interested, please contact me.
  TBIvegan@live.ca